Last week, I mentioned two things at the end of the post. “Exciting” and “conclusion”.
I lied. This post is going to be neither. Because let’s face it, there is nothing exciting about quitting smoking and this isn’t the conclusion. This battle is likely to rage on for a while.
Last week’s post has been sitting for a while. After reading over it and deciding to post, I thought it would be a fun series.
Since I left the hotel and became a full-time freelancer, I’ve stopped dipping. There’s no particular reason, I just kinda lost the taste for it.
Related: I quit my job
Last month, after being diagnosed with type II DIABEETUS, I did some research. It makes your much more susceptible to things an overweight smoker with a shitty diet who doesn’t exercise is already susceptible to.
This is unfortunate
My research led me from one sigh to another. It didn’t take long for me to get out of breath. I would take short breaks for recovery purposes, mostly just so I could sigh some more. I came to some obvious conclusions.
- I was going to have to go back to eating healthy
- I was going to have to exercise
- I was going to have to quit smoking for good
A couple of weeks ago, I bought a vape. On top of that, I switched to an ultra light cigarette from a different brand and they are super disgusting, which is what I want.
I’ve cut back from half a pack of lights to 5-7 ultralights and I’m vaping 6 mg ejuice during the day and cranking back to 3 mg juice in the evenings.
While this may not sound like a big deal, it is. My nicotine intake, the substance that makes tobacco so addictive, is slowing down. Your initial thought is probably, “I bet you’re saving a ton of money.”
Well, you would be wrong. Eliquid is expensive AF.
Why did I switch brands?
American Spirits are all natural, right? Apparently not. They have more “freebase nicotine” than any other brand. This is the reason for the switch.
I can definitely feel a difference. The instant gratification isn’t nearly as instant. But it has to be done.
What’s the plan?
I want to continue to wean myself off from nicotine until I stop smoking cigarettes completely. Then I’m going to vape for a while.
At some point, I want to add in some CBD oil. It’s supposed to help with anxiety and cigarette cravings, so I figure its worth a shot. That’s the short term. On the long term, I’m hoping to be off the vape in a year. No more ejuice, no more cigs or lighters or vapes. And $80-100 that stays in my pocket.
I didn’t expect this part of the journey to happen so soon. I knew I would have to quit eventually and I’ve been trying not to think about it. I love tobacco and smoking. We’ve been pals for a long time.
I enjoy being the stereotypical writer who smokes and drinks too much and doesn’t give a shit about anything except for the next writing project.
RIP John Dunsworth 🙁
But I can’t be that guy. I’ve got godsons I want to watch grow up. I’ve got investing to do. Wealth to build. And words to write.
Related: 13 reasons why I choose to live
I have to live better so I can keep living. It sucks. But like everything else that’s shitty in my life, I’m sure I’ll get over it.
Thanks for reading and I’ll catch yall on the flip. Don’t worry. Next weeks post will not be about diabetes or smoking.